Weekly Checkup

I thought the week was going to start out "normal" and then life happened and I didn't get my miles in like I had hoped.  So, for the month of July I had a goal of 180 miles. I was 34 miles short. I tried my best to come close. My miles total for this summer is 396. In August I would like to get to 500 which is only 104 miles, but I would like to make a daily goal of 10 miles a day. I need to really kick it up. I know by doing this I would obviously go over the 104. I need to really be mindful of my eating it is out of control sometimes. I just don't think. I'm so frustrated at myself, how many times does it take for me to realize, I need to mindful of everything I put into my mouth. How many times do I start over. I don't think there is ever a day I don't think about my weight. I feel exhausted, I have tried my whole life to be at a normal weight. My first "diet" was when I was 7. I just want to shop/have normal clothes. I don't want to worry everyone is looking at me, I'm sick of always being the biggest one. I'm sick of looking at my medical records seeing obese. I'm tired of having high blood pressure. One thing I do know is that I'm so thankful my husband loves me unconditionally and so do my kids. I love them more than they will ever know!!!!

So goals for August:

GET UP AT 5:30 TO GO BIKE BEFORE KIDS GET UP!!!!
Get to 500 miles
Go at least 10 miles per day x 6 week
Do weights at least 3 days week
Do Exercise video 3 days week
Weigh in and post weight on Mondays
Drink glass of water before every meal.
Stop eating by 730pm every night
Have an Apple a day
Be mindful about eating.